Tuesday, November 24, 2009

a Waving Hand from a Friend

It’s been raining all the weeks; every day we have dark gray skies.

Only one time it was bright, last Thursday.
Then we had a taut big day on Friday. It was a successful day; all of us were finally released from the tension.

On Sunday, again, it was cloudy; but our hearts became even darker than the sky.
One more person bid us goodbye. So sad…

Exchanging emails on Monday; a touching sentence, some sweet encouraging words and silly jokes in between have caused a shed of tears. So sad…

Playing the same song for a 100 times now; can’t get the blue atmosphere of the melody out of my head, even though the lyrics were meant to deliver some gratitude, loving message to a precious person.

So sad…

Anzen Chitai - Yume no Tsuzuki

Friday, November 06, 2009

Day of Contemplation

Wow… so many things happened today.

I think the yesterday might seem so far away for some people. I really had a great time last night with some of my friends, just like some days before. Well, it’s been a very good week for me, even though I have a couple of sleepless nights since 2 days ago. So I fell asleep in the bus on my way to uni and then fell asleep in the class as well. For me, the worst part of the day was just that.

Then in the afternoon my friend, the one who was in the same party with me the other night came; and just like we planned in the morning, she brought her stuffs to spend the night at my place. I was a bit surprised when she said it was for the sake of our work in the project. ‘Cos she’s not usually that diligent, hehehe… I already suspected that something had happened and when she arrived I knew I was right. But she won't tell me what it was. Some hours after that, slowly but sure, the story flowed… I don't know how to comfort people or how to stop tears. So I just went silent.

Soon after that the sad girl fell asleep, maybe she got tired of all these things burdening her mind. So I continued with my work and checked the email. Another surprise came. Someone got mad at someone else and all of us happened to worked in one group before. This mad someone sent the email to everybody, who were involved and linked to the case. It's like watching a soap opera. Pretty sad but somewhat hilarious. You know, like you are offered to see people fighting in public and it makes you curious about what will happen after this, how the actors are going to react and being tensed up to see the climax. I know it's very bad of me to become exited of someone else's shame. I feel guilty for that. When the sad girl woke up, I showed her the email. She was a bit amused.

I feel sorry for the guy who was accused and being humiliated in the email. He always had problems with the professors and this email which was forwarded to them will just worsen his position. I find the accusation was harsh, but at the same time I admire the angry girl because she can always speak what's in her mind and stand up for what she believes is true, even though she always express it in an ignoble way. She's also loyal to people whom she likes and she thinks are good and dedicated to their work. So I want to have the positive sides of her too and stay away from the rude behavior, 'cos I still wanna be loved by everybody :)